my life is a fake.
i miss you guys, I'm sorry if I'm a bad friend, or I'm not interesting anymore.
I'm working on it.
I decided that, the reason people like me, and Joel, and Shane Claiborne are different, is because of this.
Most people have dreams, they dream of being a famous actress, or an astronaut, or digging up dinosaur bones, and as they grow up, most people realize those dreams aren't going to happen, so they settle for dreaming of finishing college, or getting married, or moving away, and sometimes even those dreams don't work out, so they dream of having a job, or being able to pay their bills, or having a house someday.
And then, there are people who know that there are better things to dream about.
Jon Foreman knows about these kinds of people. He sings songs for them.
I'm singing this one for the dreamers
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I'm singing this one for the sparks.
people who don't dream about accomplishing great things, or being famous, or rich, or in love, or having what they want, or doing what they want.
People who dream about Love. People who dream about loving other people know what to dream about, and those kinds of people are the ones who will change the world, because what greater force of change is there than love?
Think of all the things that have happened because Jesus first loved us 2000 years ago?
so, when we dream of going to south africa forever, we're dreaming of loving people. When I dream of being a roadie and going to festivals for the rest of my life, I dream of loving people. When we dream of being poor, and simple, and not being rock stars, we're dreaming of loving people.
Not everyone dreams of that. Because not everyone sees the world for what it is.
it's like in the matrix, when everyone is asleep, and the reality they see is just a dream, that a computer programs them to feel.
And there are a few people who are really living, and see the world for all that it is, all it's darkness, and all it's beauty, and they're misunderstood.
But they are the ones who really see what is going on.
The devil has been taking things from me. Everything I love and hold dear. I feel a bit like Job for loosing everything. I know that I have to lean on God and follow him, because I know thats the truth, and I won't give into believing a lie. I won't blindfold myself from what is really happening in this life. Lately, I've felt more like just giving in, and living an average life.
But I know that, that life isn't the life I was meant to lead.
none of us are meant to lead that kind of life.
we were meant to live for so much more.